Thursday, July 09, 2009
Belated Stories, Part 1: Choral Catastrophes
In April, we qualified to participate in the state music festival. My students and I were elated and anxious about this opportunity, hoping to receive superior ratings as they had done the previous year with their former teacher. We were performing music of a higher level of difficulty, however, and we knew the standards were going to be higher this year.
The trip started out well; we arrived with plenty of time to spare before our performance. When I checked in, I was told that they were on time. Great! My students and I took our seats in the auditorium in order to watch other groups perform before we warmed up for our own performance.
We enjoyed the performance of the first group. Their final selection was a song I remember singing (and hating) in middle school. Part of the way through the piece, one of the girls in the second row wobbily stepped down to the front. The conductor saw her and began to move toward her. As she fainted, he miraculously caught her in his arms and began dragging her off the stage as his choir continued to sing. I gasped and my hand went to my heart. Other teachers ran toward the stage to assist the director, and one of them stood in front of the choir and conducted the beat pattern for them (which I thought was thoughtful but unnecessary) until the director returned.
When they finished the song, the audience applauded. Muffled murmurs permeated the crowd as we waited for the next group to take the stage. I was still shocked by what we'd just seen, and I planned to remind my students about our procedure if they felt unwell during our performance. In the next two performances we watched, at least one child in the ensemble sat down or left the stage. I knew my kids were scared, and admittedly, I was nervous too.
In the warm up room, we went over the procedure: Touch the hand of the person next to you to signal that you aren't feeling well, and use their hand, if necessary, to assist you as you sit down. We warmed up vocally, but the kids weren't focusing ... their nerves were getting the better of them ... and nothing I said seemed to have any impact on their singing. It didn't help that one of the festival helpers (a high school student) came back early to tell us they were ready for us on stage, and we didn't seem to have a choice in the matter, even though we were supposed to have a full 15 minutes to warm up. Due to the medical issues, they were running behind and were trying to catch up.
We filed out onto the stage, and the students assumed their places on the risers. They worked very hard, and our first piece, a fast-paced spiritual, went pretty well. I encouraged them to bend their knees as we waited for the judges' signal to continue with the next song, a ballad. During this song, one child sat down. By the time we finished our short third piece, three of my students were sitting down. As the rest of the choir began to leave the stage, I went over to make sure that those 3 students (now standing and waiting to leave the risers) were feeling OK. As I was talking with them, I heard a commotion offstage, and then:
"Miss LastName! Hurry!" I ran over, trying to get through the crowd of my students and discovered one child, lying on the floor, who was having trouble breathing.
"She's having an asthma attack!" Her friends informed me, frightened. I ran back to the stage and called loudly into the audience for our school's chaperones.
"Please bring the medical bag and meet us in the hallway. One of our students needs her asthma medication immediately! She's having an attack!" As I rushed back to her, I told the other students to make their way into the hallway, to clear space around her. The child's friends told me that she'd left her medication on the bus. One student volunteered to go get it, and I gave her permission. She broke off into a run as another student carried the sick child to the nurse's office, followed by a chaperone.
Just as this was happening, I heard my name being called again.
"So-and-so's just fainted!" Students were telling me, and I came over to find another child on the floor, and the students around her were saying that she'd just collapsed. I knelt near her, directing the other students to back away, she needed space. Another chaperone joined me as I spoke to the student. She was coherent but was complaining that the lights overhead were too bright. Another student volunteered that she thought this ill child had possibly hit her head when she'd fallen. My brain was racing as I had another student go get the school nurse while simultaneously praying that this child did not have a concussion. The chaperone stayed by her side as I tried to gather the rest of my choir and let them know that everything was going to be OK. I had them stand against the wall, and I discovered that two more children weren't feeling well. One felt sick to her stomach and another seemed to have a serious migraine.
I talked with those two students and the three who'd sat down during the performance as a wheelchair arrived for the girl who was quickly recovering from fainting. We waited for word of the girl who'd had an asthma attack and eventually found out that it hadn't been an asthma attack; she'd hyperventilated but was feeling much better.
We waited to hear about when we would sightread, and the minutes stretched longer. It seems that they skipped over us several times, and no one had spoken to me about it. In the meantime, I had my students sit against one wall of the wide hallway, hoping that this would prevent any more medical issues. Then the bell rang in the school to signal the change in classes for its students. I stood in front of my students, telling them to stay seated but urging them to get as close to the wall as possible so that there was still plenty of space for the few passing students to get through.
One girl rounded the corner and saw my group of my youngest (and very sweet) students sitting there. She looked at them threateningly, and said with an attitude and air of superiority, "Yeah, that's what I thought."
I looked at her with a raised eyebrow and firmly said, in a warning tone, "Don't talk to my students."
She eyed me before cattily responding, "Shut the F#$% up," and pausing briefly to see my reaction. I really wanted to sink my nails into her and wipe that asinine smirk off her face. Instead, I closed my eyes for a millisecond, praying that God would help me keep my calm. I chose to take the higher ground and ignore her, as there were no school employees or administrators in sight, and it wouldn't be a good idea to bodily drag her to the office. My students gaped at both of us in shock- at this sassy high schooler who had dared to defy their teacher (and use such language!) and at their teacher who'd maintained her composure after being so insulted for defending them.
When they mentioned it later to me (after awhile, because they weren't sure how I would react), they were impressed that I'd kept my cool.
"I can't believe she said that to you, Miss LastName!" I smiled haughtily, a delicious but wicked thought whirling in my head which escaped through my lips before I could stop myself.
"Well, as you know, some people have an extremely limited vocabulary. You just have to feel sorry for the people, like that girl, who just aren't that intelligent and don't have the ability to express themselves in a better way."
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It was nearly an hour after our performance that we were ushered into the sightreading room. Literally two minutes more, and I would have forfeited our score because it was getting late, and I was concerned about feeding the students lunch and getting back to school in time.
The sightreading went OK, even though the judge was someone under whose direction I had sung as a high school student in a choir festival, and my dislike of her hadn't changed since then. We hurried to our bus, not waiting to receive our scores. I didn't really want our scores then anyway. I knew the students had not sung as well as they had in the past and I didn't want to add that disappointment to an already challenging day.
We stopped for a fast food lunch, as our reservation at a nearby buffet had come and gone long ago and we were running out of time. By now, I was concerned that we were cutting it very close to getting back before the school day ended. The bus drivers then decided to take the main highways back to the school, which might have been a good idea if it weren't during the beginning of rush hour on a Friday afternoon! I called the school to say we might not make it back in time, and shortly thereafter, we began calling parents to pick up their kids. (I guess that, for once, it was an advantage that nearly all of my teenybopper students had their own cell phones.) We returned to school about 25 minutes after the school day ended, and one of the administrators volunteered to wait with the kids in my place after hearing of the mishaps we'd had.
It was an exhausting day. Nothing like baptism by fire for a first year teacher ...
Schoolwork
Curiosity won out (as, admittedly, it has a few times earlier this summer too) ... and ... I do have somewhat of a compulsion to check my email accounts (yes, plural) often ... even if it sometimes takes me forever to respond ...
Anyway, I'm glad I did. One parent sent me a link to this nifty YouTube video and hoped I was enjoying my summer. Another parent had contacted the school, wanting to reach me, and the secretary gave me a phone number to call. I left a message at the phone number, and as I was not at school, I left my home phone number (at my parents' home) for the return call.
Last night, I was watching a silly but highly amusing movie with my dad when the phone rang. I picked it up.
"Hello?"
"Hi, Mrs. LastName?" I was about to interrupt the caller to say, "No, sorry, my mother is not at home. May I take a message?" when the voice continued, identifying herself as the parent who'd wanted to reach me. :)
She was calling because her daughter and other students of mine are in a local musical production, and they wanted to invite me to a performance next week. Aww. :) I think I'll go.
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Wedding-related thoughts
- Church, pastor, 2/3 premarital counseling sessions
- Organist (former mentor of mine; brilliant musician)
- Reception venue
- My dress & shoes
- Appointment set up with potential florist (mother of former classmate of mine)
- Initial contacts made with several potential photographers
- Ordered Save the Date postcards which I designed (musical theme, somewhat cheesy ... I hope they turn out well! They're due to arrive Friday, the day before Westley's family reunion...)
- Online research of apartments in the area
- Online research for honeymoon venues (seeking lowkey/quiet for 4-5 days of rest and relaxation before I have to go back to school again)
- Registries at Macy's & Target have been started ... although we still need to add things like bathroom linens and bedding
Here's what else I hope to accomplish (wedding-related stuff) by the time I have to go back to school:
- Send out Save the Date postcards (Aack! The guest list has grown to about 40 people more than we'd initially expected to invite!!! I've been told by some already that they won't be able to attend ... but I am nervous about this, as more guests = more money, and we're trying to keep costs down!)
- Order invitations and prepare as many as possible
- Reception music
- Secure a photographer
- Check out apartments in person
- Finish registries
- Create wedding website with links to local hotels, registries, etc.
- Pick out & order bridesmaids' dresses
Other random thoughts:
Do I want a veil? I've been told by many that because I'm so young (24 next week) that I have to have a veil. I don't really have a feeling about it one way or another. I know I don't want a blusher because I'm afraid it would mess up my hair. I don't know how I want to style my hair. I don't want the veil to detract from the dress (high in front, low-cut back). Should I just borrow a friend's?
Music for reception??? Live band/trio to play standards? Solo pianist, although it would have to be on an electric keyboard because the venue doesn't have a piano? We'd struggled on the issue of live music vs. a DJ, and since we're both music teachers, it seems a shame to not hire live musicians, as a live performance is usually far superior to a recording.
Oh my gosh! Everything is SO expensive. I suppose it'd be worse if I lived near a REALLY big city, but I'm shocked that prices in this area are so high. We're trying to be extremely careful because Westley doesn't have a job lined up in this area yet, and we don't know how long we might have to live off of my salary alone ... We're fortunate that both sets of parents are willing to contribute, but we don't want to be a burden to either of them. *sigh*
School-related thoughts
I still think of my students often, and I've looked for hours online trying to find new, exciting repertoire for next year. Before I left, I started reorganizing my choral library at school, and I expected that I would return sooner than later to work more on it. However, the 60-mile round trip commute to work and back is not incredibly appealing, and I've not yet returned to do the unpaid task of overhauling the library.
I wonder how my students are, but I haven't spent much time in the area near where I work, and I haven't run into anyone this summer. I visited my favorite store, Tarzhay, recently to update my wedding registry, half-expecting to see someone I recognized, as I had when I last went to the store. I found what I was looking for (Hooray! Added the bowls to our registry which match the pretty plates!) but didn't see anyone. I'm not sure if I was relieved or disappointed.
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On the last day of school, we teachers waved goodbye to the students as their busses drove out of the parking lot. One boy gestured and mouthed the words, "I love you, Miss LastName!" to me as his bus pulled away. Others waved back, excited that they were free at last. I honestly can't say who was more excited though- the teachers or the students. We cheered loudly too and waved heartily.
I initially learned that this was how we ended the last day when I read it on a handout distributed at a faculty meeting a few weeks earlier. When it was announced that all teachers wave goodbye, I giggled aloud, thinking it was incredibly cheesy. I have to admit, however, that I did enjoy it ... it was a pleasant closure to the school year. (Then of course, we teachers had a few extra days to continue to take apart our classrooms and get everything organized for next year.)
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My last concerts went well. Although the students did better in the rehearsals before the concerts, the response from administration and parents was overwhelmingly positive. The students presented me with a giant card, a bouquet, and a gift (a $25 giftcard to Cheesecake Factory and an electric pencil sharpener because the manual one in my classroom is terrible). While presenting these to me and showering me with compliments ("hadn't expected a first year teacher to achieve this level of success" and "she had big shoes to fill, and in a year, she's made the program even better; she's made it her own"), my principal clapped for me. The audience did too, and all of my 250+ students gave me a standing ovation! Humbling experience. I blew kisses back to my students standing in the audience from the stage. :)
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Next week, I will be "going back to school" for a long weekend professional workshop. I'm really excited about it for many reasons: I was one of two scholarship recipients, the clinicians are internationally renowned for their expertise, I will get reimbursed by my school district for the graduate credits, and I get to add 2 more states to the list of states I've visited (#29 & #30, even though one I'm adding because I'm flying into the airport in that state and traveling on land to the workshop location). I'm not as excited about having to write a 3-5 page paper on a specific technique I learn at the workshop and how I will apply it in my classroom, but that's required for the reimbursement. Who knows? Maybe I'll be able to get that published like the last time I wrote a paper like that. :)
Monday, June 08, 2009
Rare dream
In this dream, there was a crazy tree which decided that it was no longer going to be put up with being mistreated. Those silly humans, it thought to itself, need to be taught a lesson. So the tree decided that it was going to eat a human being, the next person it encountered.
It saw a young woman from a distance and decided, That's the person I'm going to eat. He announced it to her as she drew closer. To be fair, he decided to give her some warning so that she could put her affairs in order and prepare herself emotionally for her impending doom.
The young woman was frightened but agreed to do as the tree said. She gathered together family and friends and told them of her fate. Initially, she thought she'd have a small ceremony with just her family present while the tree consumed her, but the event began to draw a great deal of attention.
Finally, the day came. The young woman walked over by the tree and held onto its viney prison-like branches. She stood there with the tree while children sang songs and a speaker gave an inspirational message. Summoning her courage, she announced that she was ready. She closed her eyes, held her breath, and gently stroked the branch holding her with her fingers.
The tree shuddered. The young woman continued to hold her breath, reassuring herself that her fear would be over soon. Eventually, she was no longer able to hold her breath, so she inhaled sharply and opened her eyes.
"What's wrong?" She asked the tree.
"I can't eat you," the tree replied. "You haven't acted like the other humans who mistreat my kind. Please forgive me."
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Up until this point, the dream sounds like a fable ... but in the next scene of the dream, I was sitting with the young woman, and she had become a friend of mine. Around her finger was a stunning ring, made from petrified wood with lovely, rare gems. She was telling me about her fiance, who happened to be the tree. Very strange indeed.
Friday, May 29, 2009
7 months minus 2 days until W-Day
*Choral catastrophes (fainting/ill children at performances, threats)
*First overnight field trip with my students
*Family party with Westley's kin
*Teaching my students how to "insult someone intelligently"
*Class personalities and how they changed
*2nd concert (which actually takes place tonight!)
*Reflections on a first year of teaching which is somehow very nearly over (how is it possible that I'm almost done?!?!?!?!?!)
I'm listing the above so I remember that I want to write down these stories before I forget them! Then ... in the years to come, I'll look back fondly on this first year of teaching, the year of my engagement, etc.
Plans for this summer:
I'm dreaming of curling up in a chair with a refreshing cup of tea (although lately I've become a coffee addict, something I'd always hoped to avoid *sigh*) with my laptop and writing. Planning my wedding. Picking music for next year. Making plans, resources for next year. Going through all my junk/stuff/clothing/etc. and getting rid of what I don't need/want. Getting organized. My bedroom is chaotic with bags of stuff here, boxes of stuff there. Bridal magazines given to me by a friend. Piles of sheet music. Books. CDs. Pictures. Miscellaneous stuff. I want to be able to walk through my room and have EVERYTHING in some kind of organized arrangement.
OK, and because today's my concert (and also fortunately, my part-time day), I'm going into school late. Otherwise, I'd be there at this very moment. I still need to go, however, and I should leave soon ... so I'll have to continue this stream-of-consciousness later ... maybe next week ... or maybe when my summer officially begins- 2 weeks from today! (Students' last day is the 10th, but mine is the 12th.) Hmm ...
Anyway ... be back sooner than later!!!
Sunday, May 03, 2009
April ... a summary :)
April was a whirlwind of a month. The month began and ended with field trips. At the beginning of the month, I took my top choir to a district festival where they performed beautifully. They were one of a handful of choirs that performed in a higher category. My supervisor rewarded me with high praise, saying, "I am your biggest fan right now" and "I am SO proud of you" and "This is an excellent accomplishment, especially for a first year teacher!"
Surprised and pleased, I thanked her for her kind words and said honestly, "Well, I did inherit a good program," and she gave me additional credit for keeping it going and improving it. Glorious way to start out the month.
Then I was consumed with our school musical. My predecessor had warned me against doing too much, and she advised me to NOT take on the school musical. I had known, however, that I wanted to do it because I didn't want anyone else teaching my kids how to sing. As the vocal expert in the school, I felt responsible for instilling good vocal habits and teaching proper technique. My colleague (who has become an excellent friend this year!) and I were fortunate to have additional assistance from very talented high school students who choreographed and staged the entire show. We taught the music and handled virtually all of the logistics. The show was a great success. Our students were marvelous, the audience doubled in size from last year's production to this year, and our very impressed principal called it "delightful" and the "perfect choice for a middle school show." Even better? Some of the students in the show who aren't in my classes this year have signed up to take my classes next year!!!
The month ended with my first overnight field trip for students from my department. The trip was a success, the students were well-behaved, and my collection of Disney movies were popular on the bus. :)
Other important events in April:
*Easter (conducted a choir at one service, accompanied another group at a later service)
*Scheduling for next year: I will be full-time!!! (I will be teaching a subject out of my field, but I do have some experience with it and I'm excited for the opportunity! Plus, it's a huge difference in my salary- 10%!)
*Westley's final concert at GradSchool ... and I loved joining them onstage for the traditional Alumni song ... *sigh* So much has happened since I sang on that stage last ... and so much more may happen before I have the opportunity to sing with them again ...
